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Well this turned out to be a good week afterall.  I took the advice and put all of the extra stress to use exercising!  Lost 8 pounds WOW!!   It is hard to believe the changes I am already noticing–my clothes are actually loose even the ones right out of the dryer!!  My wedding rings are moving around on my finger.  But guess what—- I welcome these changes and look foward to many more!!!!

I really proved to myself yesterday that I have no self control!!!!  When something very stressful happened, while crying I got in my truck and headed for McDonalds and got a large–not a small but a LARGE vanilla milkshake.  And the ironic thing is that I went to my moms grave and drank it!!!!  But when I think about it I had the two most comforting things I could have–my precious mother and food.  How do you get a grip on that kind of eating?(drinking)  I am so ashamed of how I behaved.

Party was great.  Drum roll please!!  I ate no cake!!!  yeah.    Sisters and I had a little watermelon.  But just when I thought that cake was out of my life- dear sweet daughter inlaw brought it to my house and left it!!!!!  You know– cake makes a great air freshener!!  But it is getting ready to go in the trash!!! 

Started back at the gym yesterday and I can certainly tell that it has been a while since I was last there!!  But this time I am going to stick to it!!  It’s alot easier since my two sisters are going with me.  They are so awesome!!  Great support!!

Well today is certainly going to be a test.  Granddaughter is having a birthday party-cake, ice cream- the whole works!!!  I’ve got a feeling it’s gonna get rough!!  At least my sisters will be there and maybe just maybe together  we can get through it!!  Last night I tried to upload a picture and it told me that the image was too large.  (just what I needed to hear)  lol.  Afterall that’s why I’m here!!!! lol

This week has been great!!  When I weighed this morning and saw a 7 pound loss, I actually cried.  It has been quite a while since I saw the scales heading in the backward direction!!!!  I don’t know if its wrong or not but I am so proud of myself!!  It has taken alot of hard work to lose those few pounds.  I admire everyone that has made the decision to lose weight and get healthy.  Because it takes alot of effort and hard work!!!  Hope all have a great weekend!

   The old saying that I am sick and tired of being sick and tired is so true!!  But I have no one else to blame but myself.  I am the one that keeps stuffing food in my mouth and I am the only one that can pull in the reins and take control of my unhealthy eating habits!!  I have made up my mind that I want to LIVE!!!  Because if I keep going like this I am heading for an early grave.  I WANT to see my granddaughter grow up and I want to be an ACTIVE part of her life.